Monday, June 10, 2013

Figuring it all out

I'm bad about posting.

I could blame it on a lot of things: I'm busy, life things take priority, I have nothing to talk about, I'm in the middle of moving and it's the furthest thing from my mind. The truth, though, is I don't enjoy it.

Usually I post when it occurs to me to write about something. When WRITING things occur to me to write about. See, I'm a writer. I want to get the hang of blogging and being active on social media now, so that if (when!) I'm published, I've worked the kinks out.

It seems like most writers write about writing. It makes sense, I guess. Beginning writers talk about the process of beginning, veterans rain their words of wisdom on the masses, and industry professionals give awesome tidbits of information that shine light into the dark, scary corners of the road to publication.

As I've had realizations, I've blogged about them, but it seems like most things I would talk about have been well and truly covered by people a lot smarter and wittier than I am. I'm a novice. I don't have a lot of experience to draw on, since I'm just figuring things out. My first book is with betas, and I probably will blog about that soon, but I've never even queried an agent. What can I say?

Sure, I'm an industry intern, but the joys and tribulations of my internship are easily summed up in the 140 characters it takes to tweet about them.

Writing about fantastical places and peoples makes me happy, makes me excited, makes me forget about real clothes and eating and anything but living in that world until the words are out of my brain and on the screen. Writing about writing, however, makes me anxious.

My critique partner Zoe is a writer. She wrote a beautiful young adult novel in verse. Sometimes she blogs about books in verse, but mostly she blogs about tea and nail polish...because those things are fun for her to write about and think about. Those things make her happy. She WANTS to blog about them, and so she does. Consistently.

So I'm going to take a page from her book. (She's a smart cookie.) I'll blog about the writing process as it occurs to me, but the rest of the time I'll blog about other things. Non-writing things. 99% of my brain seems to be taken up by writing things. Focusing on something else will be a welcome relief.

I signed up for pinterest the day before yesterday, and I noticed something. The things that I'm most interested in are things I've always been interested in. They're the things I used to obsessively google before writing and researching writing became pretty much every moment of my free time. So I'm going to write about those things. Basically, getting healthy physically and spiritually. That means going green with all natural homemade beauty products and cleaning products. It means decluttering my life and learning to become organized in a way that's realistic for the way my crazy, messy brain works. It means nurturing the flighty, artistic part of myself with random acts of creativity. It means nourishing the thirsty, questioning part of myself with daily meditation. And it means making healthier choices with the foods I love so that I can be a happier, stronger, healthier me.

So far, I fail pretty miserably at all of the above. But I think I'll enjoy blogging about the process of reinventing myself and actively working to become a happier person more than I enjoy blogging about writing. I'm sure there are other people out there like me who want to Eat, Pray, Love their way into a healthier life in a realistic (not self-indulgent) way. People who just don't know where to start.

I don't know where to start, either, but I'm good at researching things, and I'm good at figuring things out. So this is me figuring it. The blog name may change. The blog location may change. But that's okay, because I'm definitely going to change.

And I'm actually excited to blog about it. ^_^